Sunday, May 30, 2004
once again, its the period of time where i encounter lots of problems.. haiz.. family, studies and everything.. its getting me crazy.. i've made up my mind.. i'm jus gonna shut up wherever i go.. be it in school or band.. by keeping comments to myself and tok only when needed.. [suggestion from yg kor] haiz.. try to tok even lesser at home too.. these few dayz, keep crying and getting mad.. woke up this morning, cried.. i really feel like giving up studying, but i know, i can do it.. if i jus pay more attention in class......then i might be able to pass..
i dun have a good character, i am not good in studies.. i am not good in anything.. got attitude problem.. sumtimes i wonder if it matters whether if i exist or dun.. i am confused..i really hate myself..i think i am going to be like one of my fren whom i always "counsell" her de.. she cries to let out her feelings, keeps things to herself and cuts herself.. gonna be like her very very soon.. haiz.. why is everyone commenting on my results? do i look as if i really wanted this kind of results? haiz..when is all this going to end?
i keep telling my mum i am stupid.. i cant study.. i hate studying.. haiz.. but is all this negative remarks gonna help me? i better go think bout it.. =(
[sMaller eyes dUe to n0n-st0p crying all day loNg]
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Friday, May 28, 2004
haiz.. wonder wads gonna happen tml.. "i'm going to tok to you bout ur ATTITUDE".. haiz.. really really scared lo.. wonder wad i done again.. tok to yg kor jus now, and he talked bout eugene.. haiz.. really dun know wad the hell has happened.. sumone came to sae he is disapointed with me, on the other hand, didnt know wad i did.. i was like....wtf, wtf.. haiz.. veyr fan.. MUM keep asking me to study.. wtf man.. FAN SI REN!.. mrs leong tok so much, tok tok tok and tok.. haiz.. fan si ren.. hate life man.. gonna gib face to everyone in my house! argh.. and my damm sis is irritating me to gib her the com.. argh.. everyone's getting on my nerves.. really hoped that my com was alright, got my freedom.. hate STUDIES!
sAd and irritated.. why wasnt anyone there for me when i am down? haiz.. except yg kor, toking to me.. thanks..
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Thursday, May 27, 2004
y00hoo.. as usual.. i dunno wad i cum to school for.. everyday sure got free periods one lo.. if dun think on the bad side, can help me finish a math homework.. its quite boring too.. yesterday slept at 12.30am.. was sorting out the QM files lo.. at the same time, listening to perfect 10 and smsing.. hehe..
gotta ask mdm wan if i can change the parent meeting session to tml.. if can then call my mum to cum down.. haha.. today in school had quite a fun time.. keke.. laughing till pengz.. haha..! cant stop laughing again..
ok.. theres this guy dunno who la.. who claims to be the head prefect of last time de la.. me, xiao yan and weiling saw him this morning.. lol.. he was in total blackness.. meaning, black shirt, black shorts and black bag! lol.. got this feeling that his a pervert! haha.. but well, feeling only.. during recess.. went to the bk shop to photocopy scores.. and there this guy, was sitting down there on the table! LOL! but nth happened.. haha.. told aunty that we take it after recess.. lol.. as we walking to the bk shop after eating, lol.. me and weiling sae.. "wonder if the guy still sitting down there.." haha.. then weiling suddenly very excited! lol.. he asked.."wei, i wan hear him tok, like nv hear him tok b4!" haha.. then we went in, he still sitting down there, same position! unfortunately, aunty FORGOT to photocopy! ai yo.. then she print on the spot.. LOL.. when finish printing, the guy seemed really interested.. then he started to tok, and thats when i heard his voice! guess! was it nice? LOL... =/.. at first when he spoke, i still look at his face, i thought which aunty toking.. kao.. its him leh.. OMG lo.. i turned around, saw weiling's expression! lol.. she like wan to laugh dun wan to laughh.. i cant control! i turn back and LAUGH.. lol.. hahaha.. quickly run out of the bk shop and shouted to weiling to get all my stuff out! LOL..
laughed all the way to class.. haha.. really very funny lo.. this wei ling ar.. always make me laugh de! hehe.. indeed my best fren! wah.. jus saw the news.. that the water theme park open ler.. hehe.. see the people there play liek very fun leh! i also wan play!! hehe.. then immediately told maureen bout it and wan to go with her! hehe.. wonder wad it would be like! cool i guess! keke..
stupid anthony, after band run away.. bleh!! keke.. took bus with my dear maureen.. hehe.. on the bus also very funny.. got this funny stench lo.. very stink.. lol! then me and maureen started laughing once again.. lol.. then she took out the dried orange to eat.. hehe.. overall had a long and tired day.. but fun though! kekez!
chEerS!
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
today is yet another tired day.. kekez.. go sch, sleeeeep.. dammit lo.. a math inverse function very fun! hehe.. a math rox.. lol.. for the time being only la.. today is my best fren 3 mth with fren.. hahas.. after recess is like.. 4 damm free periods lo.. finmihs a math homework in one and half periods.. then zho bo.. kaoz.. bored lo.. so sms again.. hehe.. lol.. this month sms sure.. *BOOM* haha.. jus now download alot of ringtone and pics! hehe.. very nice leh.. came home do e math for 1 hr.. mum came home, tok tok a while.. SLEEP!.. hehe.. the weather so good lo.. i sms until sleep lo.. woke up at 7pm.. i mean.. kena CHAO XING.. hehe.. woke up.. ate dinner.. fold hearts.. lol.. then cum online chat chat lo.. then ask mr poh to check the thing he dun wan! bleh!
wah.. not fair de lo.. sec 2 today got thumbs up program.. then maureen keep telling me got shuai ge leh! jealous! hehe.. the sec 2s ar.. like in themepark like that.. band table then scream scream.. haha.. like.. roller coaster.. keke.. wonder wad would school life be if springfield is a themepark.. hehe.. let me think through..
tml is yet another fun filled day.. yea! got band.. hehe.. wanna take bike again! bye!
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Tuesday, May 25, 2004
in school so boring.. so tired.. yesterday the MJC concert was....... * a waste of most of my time, money..* lol.. only horn section very nice.. trumpets....=x.. hehe.. very tired leh.. after came back sms until sleep lo.. hehe.. too bad, cant wake him up in the morning.. cos hp charging.. sad..
today in sch wan sleep.. wah.. sibei sian and tired.. then i sms again.. haha.. my average number of sms per day is increasing day by day.. lol.. from 50 to 60.. to 100?? lol.. hope not.. hehe.. after band walk to interchange with norman and anthony.. hehe.. maybe half the way i on bike.. lol.. anthony *tompang* me on his bike.. very shuang.. lol.. but very scary lo.. i sorta lose balance on it.. lol.. shuang cos its windy.. lol.. i was practically screaming all the way.. lol.. and i didnt even notice my self, pulling his shirt.. lol.. until he ask me to let go.. lol.. fun la.. hehe.. next prac got more! lol! hehe.. k la.. end here.. =)
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
dammit.. nv ever trusted my family members.. even though my mum doesnt care bout relationships on me.. but when she tok bout that with me ar, i feel very pai seh leh.. on friday in class.. i was too bored.. so i wrote a note on me falling in love once again.. haha.. or izzit infactuation?
and damn it, i left that piece of note in my pencil case.. and my bitchy sister took it.. read it.. and told my bro maybe? i dun care.. but she go shout out to my mum.. lol.. even though my mum doesnt care.. i very pai seh leh..i also very angry.. i really hate my sis.. why must she be here? because of her, i cant have the privacy i want.. i cant leave my things around my room..
from mr poh's blog.. i realised that trust is really a simple 5 letter word yet very complicated and easy to lost kinda thing.. its a real big thing.. trust takes yrs to build up.. i guess his really hurt by this particular guy.. and he trusted him so much.. if u know of a guy, a guy who doesnt cries easily, cries.. the problem isnt that simple.. guys dun cry easily.. yea.. thats bout it..
today sorta tok to many pple bout their problems.. and it feels kewl to give suggestions and opinion.. especially to maureen.. "i know u can do it! kam ba teh!"
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Saturday, May 22, 2004
pai seh.. these few days very busy.. kekes..
had a real tired day today.. didnt know why also.. went for band.. had marching sectionals.. took sectinals lo.. quite fun and learning experience.. trumpeters.. hais.. tend to slack alots.. after that went for sectionals.. it was terrible.. we did sectionals at opera estate.. janice and benedict was sitting in the canteen.. janice heard us, and said that we sound like ducks.. so benedict came to punish us lo.. 5 rounds.. well.. i think it really sounded like lo.. cos break them into 2nds and 3rds to do BASIC scales study lo.. BASIC.. (I recommend- pg 7, number 3) to be exact.. especially for the springfielders.. very disappointed with them.. we have been doing it like.. for? from the starting of the yr? and they still cant do it.. i scolded them cos i am disappointed.. sum even dunno how to play the SCALES at all lo.. fingering also can get wrong.. argh!
lunch time lai ler.. bout food for the EMPEROR.. lol.. [he should know who he is k? lol] he stupid de lo! wilson sit down there nv do anything, he dun wan to ask him to buy drink.. PURPOSELY as me (the one eating) to buy! KAO.. nvm.. i very kind one.. i forget it.. lol.. then the EMPEROR asked for my hp.. lol.. even my hp also BU FANG GUO! haha.. he go read my msg leh! so bad.. then call me names.. hump! haha..
after band.. we went to suhaila's house.. she loooked very sad.. haiz.. if its me.. i also de lo.. imagine.... haiz.. dun sae..felix still go make fun of her.. lol.. first time see guys trying to tie girls hair.. lol.. farzana poor thing.. haha.. took a pic of them trying to tie. haha
today very tired leh.. but really feel like going to the movies.. hais.. dunno why also..
-(faLLing iN LovE aGain..)-
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Monday, May 17, 2004
sooooo happy.. hehe.. on saturday, even though evening wasnt that pleasant.. the night was fun! went for bowling at marina at 11pm.. watch TROY at 12.20.. the show ended at 3.30am.. haha.. then went to simpang bedok to eat.. lol.. reached home bout 5am.. shoik sia..
today went for dental appointment.. then go cut hair.. after that go tampines mall buy hp.. muahaha.. SCG X600A.. wootz.. very song leh.. haha.. these few days keep spending money.. lol.. hais.. i apologise to her liao.. she nv accept.. wad can i do?
tml got band! yea! hehe.. very fun.. kkies.. gonna check my phone and sleeeepp.. kekes..
*wiNks*
the salesman very cute too! kekez..
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004
yea!! exams are over.. got this feeling i nv been studying seriously lo.. everyday slack.. but chinese paper was quite easy for me.. hehe.. why? cos i studied.. of course..
a math.. hais.. the result is like THERE ler.. hahas.. after exams went to weiling house.. the stupid DOG!! make me keep screaming and running.. think i've lost a FEW kgs liao.. haha.. summore break record.. see the dog, jump down from the 7th step of the stairs! lol.. lucky nv break my limbs.. though it hurts abit now..came home.. then tell my mum going out tml, she sae after i follow her to hospital.. kAOS.. then i throw temper as usual la.. now that i got a hi-fi set.. i blast the music, slam the door! haha.. then tokt o me, i dunwan answer.. sian de lo!
oh yea, toking bout my stupid nose! first time man, i had a one sided running nose and blocked nose.. so irritating.. all the way in a math paper, sneezing.. make until my throat very dry.. pplus the shouting and screamings of BER BEr(doggy)..damm..my voice sounds funny.. rite.. its 10 plus now.. right now toking to mr poh.. (making him sae who he likes!!lol..)
told yue ghim kor that the one i love is the one i hate.. cos i hate him..argh..
*w.a.d.e.v.e.r..d.u.n..w.i.s.h..t.o..s.e.e..y.o.u..a.n.y.m.o.r.e.z..*
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
everyday online very sians.. so decided to cum try out this blooging system.. =)
i sLacked tHru tHe whole day today..woke up, watch tv, had lunch, went out, came home, went roller blading, played computer, dinner, went for taekwondo came back, used computer and gonna watch tv later.. isnt this called slack?
today during taekwondo, at first we did sparring training.. then mam ask me go to one side do pattern.. do liao then teach benson los.. quite fun la.. jus that benson like wanna die like that.. haha.. no energy.. kekes.. then after taekwondo.. sat down and tok tok tok with mam and friends los.. then after that go home!!
-toothaChes!!-
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